Reminders

It's been a long two weeks. I've spent the better part of the time forcing myself to smile, to be strong, to be happy. My boys are very empathetic, and when I'm upset, so are they. And when I'm upset, the last thing I want is two very upset toddlers.

But I've been noticing that I'm forcing myself less. I am actually happy, and I'm not going to lie: it scares me.

I am scared because I don't want to forget what happened. I don't want to lose the memory of my tiny little Rowan Emory, even though I never got to meet them.

I am still working on my tribute painting, but I don't know when it will be finished. So I decided I would get a second tribute made for me.

Enter Spiffing Jewelry. 

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I bought Husband's anniversary gift from them and was so impressed by their customer service skills, the quality of their products, and the fact that had so many options for me. I worked with Gretchen from the Spiffing Team to get my piece absolutely perfect, and placed the order last week.

I got my ring today. It is so beautiful, and exactly what I imagined. Gretchen helped me pick out the font, and the name of it, Little Love, is so fitting. (It's really hard to capture the full text with an iPhone camera, but I tried.)

In the near future, I am going to be ordering two more rings with Bear and Sper's names on them to stack with Rowan's. I honestly can't wait to work with Spiffing again. They do some amazing work.

I find myself opening my sketchbook to look at Rowan's name quite often, and now all I have to do is look down at my hand. It makes my heart full to bursting to know that there are people like Annie and Gretchen and the rest of SJ to bring smiles to heartbroken people.

-L

PS: Husband and I would like to say thank you to everyone for their positive thoughts and prayers. It means so much to us to know that you care.