Rough Weeks

If I were one to lie, I would say that this week has been pretty smooth sailing.

Unfortunately, I don't like lying, even if it means coming clean about the fact that I've spent more time this week crying than not.

I've got a lot on my plate, and I don't get a day off. My day to day schedule looks like this:

-Wake up and take Bear to preschool

-Do homework while Sper eats breakfast and plays 

-Pick Bear up from preschool

-Lunch and playtime with the boys

-On Wednesdays, nap time is pushed back a couple of hours so that the boys can go to speech and occupational therapy

-During nap time, I clean and, if my homework is all caught up, I work on orders and talk to Husband on Skype 

-After naps, the boys get to watch a show while I get dinner ready and clean

-Dinner, baths, and more cleaning or homework

-After the boys are down for the night, I work on orders and finish any homework I have

-Fridays are a bit better, since Bear doesn't have preschool, but I do have to take them to therapy still

All of this, with errands and shopping and appointments mixed in. The weekends are best because I don't have to go anywhere.

With all of this, I'm surprised that I haven't broken down before now. But I did. I ended up calling Husband at midnight my time crying. 

I've been so incredibly blessed this deployment. I get to talk to my husband almost everyday, schedules are mostly  predictable, I'm able to go to school, and my business has been picking up. No one has been seriously sick or injured since we came home from Utah, and my boys are angels (they're toddlers, though). 

Sometimes it gets to be too much. I wonder if I've taken on too many projects, if I need to cancel some appointments, extend production time. I've actually stepped back from a few things because the thought of doing that, too, has sent me into a full-fledged panic attack.

I'm so thankful that I have such a good support system of friends and family that I can talk to when it gets to be too much. I even have a place to escape to when I need a façade of me time. Everyone needs someone to support them, even in the tiniest ways. It really is a good thing.

Friends and Animals (or, We Went to the Zoo)

Last Tuesday was a great day. After 4 extremely long years, I finally got to see one of my very best friends. It was so great, because in the 5 years since I graduated high school, I've only seen a handful of my friends. And the fact that they were able to come visit? Even better.

6 1/2 years difference.

Here we are, getting ready to go to our Junior Prom (2007), and the night they got here. Not too much has changed, and I was so thankful for that. (Sometimes it breaks my heart to see how much people have changed since the last time I saw them. I understand that they are discovering who they are, but I miss the person I knew growing up.)

Wyatt and his boyfriend Alex spent the week going to the beach, Disneyland, Aquarium of the Pacific, and on Saturday, they took us to the zoo. I was so thankful, and excited (giraffes!).

Sper was so unimpressed with everything that day.

Alex (left) and Wyatt being adorable.

Bear and Husband loved seeing the animals together.

Bear sat here for a good ten minutes with Turtle.

Me and Wyatt.

This was my favorite part of the whole day.

I really loved having them here. I miss them already, and can't wait until I get to visit them again. This was Wyatt's first time in California, so I was super happy that I could be a part of that.

Bear loved having them here, as well. He called them his "People." (That's what he calls visitors that are around often enough to make an impression on him, but not often enough that he knows their names.) He has been so sad since they left, and keeps asking for them.

Bear and Wyatt watching Monster's Inc.

All in all, it was a really good week, and it was just the thing I needed to lift my spirits up.

Any of my other friends want to come visit? We'd love to have you! (Hint, hint!)